The pressure of having to lead the prayer is getting to me sometime. No, not sometime. All the time. It builds up long before the actual time. By the time I get to the surau, it has become unbearable. I will get extremely nervous. I am so afraid to make a mistake. It is something I need to take care of. Ten years ago, when I was also regularly leading the prayers at another surau, I felt the same thing. Don't know how I can get it off me. Its disturbing me, making me unable to read clearly, making me forget what I have memorised. Perhaps it is because I am trying to reach new heights by reading a new verse every time. I can keep on repeating the same few verses but that will not be a good thing, would it?
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