I still get the jitters when I am leading the prayer especially when I am reciting a verse that I seldom do. That was how it was this morning during the morning prayer when I decided to recite from Al Baqarah, 39-48. I had memorised it well. I have gone through it in my mind so many times. I was sure I could breeze through without any problem. There will be no mistakes. I had also recited it a few times before but somehow this morning, I was so jittery. The nervousness came and I couldn't stop it. Needless to say, butterflies were in my stomach. As a result, I couldn't think straight. My voice cracked. I started to struggle. I mumbled. Alhamdulillah there was somebody in the congregation who also memorised it. With his helped, I managed to get through.
After the prayer, I wanted to find out who that person was. Turned out that person is still in his teens, a Tahfiz, meaning someone who has memorised the whole Quran. I have never seen him before at the surau. He said he is visiting his uncle who lives on the village.
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